May or May Not

To see you on the top,
I may or may not be there,
To put my hand on your shoulder,
I may or may not be there,
To be the witness of your richest laugh,
I may or may not be there,
To stop you from falling,
I may or may not be there,
To make you feel good when you fall sick,
I may or may not be there,
To bring food to your bed,
I may or may not be there,
Because,
I am old, son,
I feel tired,
My skin has wrinkles,
It says to me I have lived long,
I know I haven't,
I still feel I am awesome,
Handsome,
Smart,
Charming,
Adorable,
Lovable tall guy your mother married,
I think of you and jane,
The two people I loved the most,
To fulfil the needs I tried my best,
Worked all day, overtimed,
I may not have been the best
But I did my best.
But today,
I think I am falling apart son,
I know your shoulders are strong
But I use walker instead, son,
I could use some fun time
But I keep staring from window son,
After jane died
I am all alone, son,
I won't complain if you watch tv loud,
I wouldn't mind if you play games on my cellphone,
I wouldn't mind if you go out and play all day,
Just come home for one day,
Just have fun for one day,
Just make me laugh one day,
Just be my son one day,
Just my lovely kid,
My blood,
My life.
To see me again,
To walk me again,
To love me again,
To feed me again,
To stop me from falling,
To see me laugh again,
The time may or may not be there,
To receive my best gift,
I may or may not be there.