The Scent of You

Oh stranger,
I tried not to see you,
I tried not to think of you,
but its the scent of you
that makes me crazy,
that makes me wonder who you are,
that makes me want to know you,
that makes me come close to you,
that makes my heart sprint,
its the scent of you
that makes me follow you,
that heightens up all my desires,
the highest of all,
to have you in my arms,
to touch every strand of your hair
like I am playing a Sitar,
to touch your skin
like I am touching a water drop,
that softness,
that delicacy,
that innocence,
those glittering eyes of a child,
that secret laughter of a magician,
a perfect figure,
like symmetry of a molded time piece,
oh beautiful,
my clock has stopped,
my time has melted away,
the sky has turned golden,
the factory of my mind has shut down,
its the scent of you
that has created a new weather,
where leaves never fall,
all the trees are green,
all the fruits are ripe,
the flowers are filled with elixir,
oh dear,
say something,
my urges want to hear you,
my veins are full of heat,
yes I can feel that,
I am burning to tell you,
that its the scent of you
that is making me want you,
that is making to a diamond of my heart,
a shimmer of moonlight,
the brightest star of my universe,
the queen of space,
a source of all energy,
the origin of my consciousness,
its the scent of you
that is making me crazy.

A common story of an uncommon girl

She is 29,

lives alone in her apartment,

lost her job eighteen months ago,

buys bread and butter from savings,

her face has lost the charm,

dark circles have surrounded her eyes,

the only friends that she have

exists in virtual world,

on a social network,

she tried reaching them,

they were off,

maybe not,

but she saw them off always,

no replies,

tried dating sites, Got nothing,

a blank hand with no lines,

a forehead with no destiny,

a clock without hands in it,

a white without white in it,

colorless,

odorless,

senseless life,

a faded picture on the wall,

an expired jar of nectar,

a plodding heart with glorious past.

The past,

when she was loved,

when she was admired,

men wanted her,

they desired her,

they made her feel like a fairy,

a goddess living on earth,

a blossom of youth,

ready to do anything,

just needed a sign.

Then she became selective,

she chose one,

above her class,

much higher,

very rich and powerful,

started to accompany him,

became her courtesan,

a blind follower of avarice,

forgot her truth,

became insanely obsessed,

and then,

he left her,

married a girl of her own class,

and this 29 year old broke,

became a ripped piece of cloth

that cannot be fixed,

lost her girlfriends,

found herself limping on streets,

looking for men who wanted her,

got some of them,

one of them arranged an iPhone for her,

the joy lasted 2 weeks,

then she switched the party,

this time she got a dress

worth six thousand,

lucky girl,

this joy lasted 7 days,

now she wanted more,

this time she got a drug assignment,

she did it,

she got money she couldn't dream of,

she did it again,

again,

again,

and again,

until she got caught,

jailed,

beaten,

raped,

raped again,

her mother bailed her out,

her father disowned her,

her sister left the country,

everybody cornered her,

her hunger for affection multiplied,

she craved for friends,

for the people with whom she could talk,

but she couldn't find them,

and now she lives alone,

looking for recognition,

looking for a knock on the door,

maybe somebody looking for an address,

maybe somebody wanting to know who lives here,

maybe somebody who needs something,

but nobody knocks,

her window in the room knows her,

it doesn't talk but it listens endlessly,

it cannot shed tears for her doom,

but it’s brooding over one thing for certain,

how she couldn't find another rich one.

Good Evening

An Evening from the terrace of my home.

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Nineteen Eighty-Four by George Orwell

Nineteen Eighty-Four is a great but very depressing novel by George Orwell about the life under the rule of a purely tyrannical and dictatorial government. The novel tells the story of a person who starts thinking of going against the supreme ruler, the Big Brother, and then he is entrapped in a series of events that are totally unimaginable.  The basic philosophy of the writer is to select whether capitalism is better than conservative and tyrannical rule and vice versa. If one is brought up in liberal environment then the life of that person is hell in a very conservative environment where highest form of surveillance is there to keep an eye on him all the time. Can you live like that? The reader automatically asks while reading. It’s like most powerful person has decided that you should now live according to the rule-book he has created and then if you try to resist or raise question, you are liable to be wiped out from the history of humanity. It reminds me of the structure and living life style of many religions and communities on earth who actually believe in choking the person and kill the individuality that is the basic trait of any human. The historical example of the divided states of Germany after the Second World War comes into my mind when the government of East Germany practically proved that human development can be taken back to Stone Age through total mind control of the people of any place no matter what history they had. The ending of the novel is something I wasn't expecting during the course of the events that the protagonist was going through and that makes it a novel worth reading till the end. 

An Evening from Terrace of My Home

@ Home 

It was gonna rain today but it didn't.

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