You Do But You Won't

Yes you need money,
or precisely,
you want money,
but you won't ask for it,
as it may degrade you,
make you feel ashamed,
the hidden guilt of begging,
so you want me to understand it,
that I visit you and give it to you,
on the grounds of you past favors,
reciting your needs with my tongue,
damning consumerism,
but saying it to be the need of the hour,
cursing loans but saying they are
prizes in advance,
you won't be ashamed
if you die for a penny extra,
but you will be ashamed to admit
that you lived for it.
You do but you won't.